p-Ja’S dIaRy…

Seems like it was yesterday
When I saw your face
You told me how proud you were,
But I walked away
If only I knew what I know today
Ooh, ooh

dh penah post diz song…but me nk wat preview jap….suke bangat wif diz song sbb sgt sede…me yg x leh nangis pon at last lega after dgr diz song….wekeekekeke…leh nangis pulun2….sbb nye terkena batang idung sendiri….diz statement "n i’ve hurt myself by hurtin u…hurt ke hate ke…mmg pon….absolutely correct…tp wat 2 do…hate is must!!!!!…cz me must avoid suke feelin…cinta feelin….syg feelin…cz me still syg myself….me xmo myself sede2…rs unlucky bangat2…rs blame sorg2…frust sorg2….
solution 2 feel more better is sharing ur feelin wif other ppl ait?….waahahaha….70% mmg btol…tp ade ke org nk dgr kisah kita 24hrs?…none ait…so d best way is….tulis pe je yg kite nk tulis kat blog sendiri…x de sape nk marah….nk berlagak ke…nk ape ke….tulis je
try 2 create me as 1 part of looser team?…no way!!!!!!!

“Si dia yg mencintai kamu sepenuh hati akan menilai kamu dr sudut pandangan matanya sendiri..bukan dr pandangan kawan2nya n keluarganya….cantik di matanya x semstinya cantik di mata org lain…dia x menghiraukan pandangan org lain krn apa yg penting bgnya as long as dia bahagia n bangga memilikimu sbg kekasih”….

huahuahuahua…tp carile yg sedap mata memandang sbb dia la yg bakal menemani kite sepanjang kehidupan kita….yang kite selesa share evrythin…jgn sbb org tuh ade harta…so kita accept dia cz of harta…biar muke x seberapa…asalkn berduit..g tu me mmg x nk…..

Lagipon mona penah ckp….. “lelaki baik hanya utk wanita yg baik”….4 me…hope so so dpt org leh bimbing me ke jln yg benar….yg ikhlas….yg x amik kesempatan….yg nk me bkn sbb certain reason….

Teringat plak kisah me n mona kat mlk central……ni gara2 terbiasa kena touch card b4 kuo o masuk UG…..so kt mlk central suppose me kena bg kat uncle tuh rm1…but me wat tindakan refleks kat pan kaunter uh n menyebabkn mona menjerit… “woit…ko nk wat pe nih?”…n on d dot me tersedar bahawasanya ini bukan UG ini ialah mlk central….huahuahuahuahua….me nk amik card as usual le nk touch card tuh…adoii mak…tu le byk berangan…jd cm2 lew…
ok skian….mekasihh….

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"erm…r u interested to make extra income?..hw abt if we go for xxx..i x know u..u x know me…im notty but not bad..x force..im frm KL..hit me back K..tk care"

wat d fux man….adoiiii…..bio le bermaruah skit…..plz la wei…ig t me ni wat….mmg le nk extra income but bknnye thru wrong way…..dh cukup pe me rs b4 nih…
"Ya Allah ya Tuhanku…jauhkanlah aku dr anasir2 jahat cmni…."
since dulu til now….cmni je nasib me…dh le susah dpt bofffren…ader scandal cm2 le gayanye…yg mintak nk kawan pon cmtuh gak…kotor sungguh pemikiran dorg….
as me told b4….most of them dh ader awek…but 1 thin is…dorg syg bangat kat gurl dorg tp nk lepas nafsu serakah dorg wif other gurl….x mo wat kat gurl sendiri sbb tuh stock bini ait?…..bosan je…tgk org la wei…bg le seploh juta cash pon…me dun want n never do benda kotor…insyaallah as long as Tuhan safe me…me akn terselemat dr anasir2 itu…
even dh hampir2 terkena pon…seb baik bijak skit…
kepada org2 yg terdiri dr golongan ni…tolong laa…..cari org lain k…me not interested 2 wat benda2 tuh sumer….bg sy keamanan n ketenangan…jgn tanya sume benda yg x masuk akal….ceri kat lorong2 je tau….x kisah le k kata me kolot o wat…tp me x mo….no no no no no
sgt sux bile org bg msg ask me bukan2…make me emo je….tuh yg malas actually nk view my inbox……kalo bc jd cmni lew….dun b desperado…me also desperado but not into this thin…me nk tolong org bina tiang masjid je…..but qualified o not…me no so sure……wait n c je….
suke x suke me kena accept gak benda cmni…ni le life…mebbe sbb me sexy kot?…am me sexy?…but i dun think so actually….cm gurl yg lain je….nk kate cz of cute face?…huahuahuahua…sure my mum gelak if she know me ckp me cute….me not cute also not beautiful….n d important thin is me adalah sorg pompuan yg sgt complicated…pelik pon bleh kot….
moody a lil bit le…me x suke byk benda….me x suke dating hari2…..nnt cepat buhsan…datz y me suke long distance relationship…tp lain plak jdnye….me x suke gak org paksa me kuruskn badan…let me willin to do je….me x suke gak nk report everythin thru sms….cz me report certain thin yg me rs sj2 nk show off ke…o gitu2 la….me jahat…if me x suke…me ignore je org tuh…sms le me byk mane pon….call me pon me x akan angkat…..except 4 certain ppl….bukan me sengaja x rep msg…tp sumtime tuh xde credit lew…cthnye kawan sy yg study kat usm pp tuh..if he read diz then he’ll know sape yg me maksudkn)….sokmo le msg time me x de credit…tp ! thin is…me mmg malas rep msg pon…malas thp gaban..sowi sowi sowi sowi
me x suke gak org yg show off nih…berlagak x tentu pasal….sumtime x le loaded mane pon…tp berlagak cm ape je….cm anak menteri je….acceptable if dia btol2 berkemampuan n nk berlagak2 cm2…
just b urself…..tuh yg me suke…x perlu nk nyamar2….but dun be 2 poyo sgt….cermin diri dulu…dun b over confident…me pon cermin diri gak…datz y le me feel yg me got low self esteem lately…x lawa+x pandai…huhuhuuhuhuuhu…

i’m desperado…huahuahuahua….really2 mean it…desperate 4 certain thin…omG…plz show me d way that i can found wat i wan n i need now…plz plz plz n plz…..
actually dh x tau nk wat cmne?…cz me no idea le…kering kontang dh kepala sem nih…x berkembang pon otak….me nk #####…nk sgt2….not me sorg…mona feel same je….kecik pn ye gak….nk nk nk  nk n nk….
me view my fwen list kt fwenster also kt myspace…tp nonsense…x jumpe pe yg me cari….huhuhuhuhuhuhu

me pn x igt bile…tp ader la 1 nite tuh time kemas2 bilik me yg kt mlk…me jumpe le 1 paper yg me tulis sumer subject yg me dh amik n blom amik lagi…..so me sgt realize ketidakcerdikan my brain…wahahahaha…<10 subject got B- n d others sumer nye C….  x kisah le C je ke,C- ker….n me terpk ade ke org nk amik me keje nnt….pk punyer pk…til me tetiton…kuikuikuikuikuikui…..
sok pg pon…di saat2 mornin glory tuh..me cont pk after output process(sambil2 tunggu kol 8am cz nk bfast)….me rs lew…x de org kot nk hired me based on my academic result….so wat me need 2 do is….cari d other skill…wahahahaha…yg ni secret…x bleh bgtau public pe yg me nk wat pasni….tp yg pasti mmg keje ngan org dulu sbb my dad ask me 2 do diz thin 1st….b4 me entered 2 dunia business yg sebenarnyer….dia kate p bg org buli kite jap…..p keje yg tempat teruk2….me pon mmg nk cm2….
plan baik punye 4 my future….really hope n wish sumernye berjalan lancar…insyaallah…memandangkan my study life mmg sangkut giler2…asyik2 got problem…macam2 ada….dr  sekecil2 kuman sampaila sebesar2 alam…..sumtime me slalu pk ader x lg org yg unlucky like me….exactly like me….o just lil bit ke….
so me really2 hope yg when me kuar dr bumi mmu yg sux ni…me got wat me want n need selama ni….amiiiinnnnnnn
sgt penat nk sampai ke tahap ni,…genius ppl sure x r s pe….sbbme ni x cerdik mane….so when d others got supp paper ke…terminated ker…me rs sgt cian kt dorg…cz me penah rs sumer tuh…
ader my fwen penah ckp kat me…"abisla ko nnt hantaran low je sbb dh le grad x 1st clss degree..pastuh dh le tgn2 patah le…pe la…."…..even tuh conversation dlm slot gurau2 kitorg…tp bleh jd gak…mane la tau dpt mother-in-law yg mementingkn kesempurnaan…nk yg degree 1st class ke….nk yg ade master ke….nk yg cantik ke….ke nk yg beautiful wif brain…mmg perfectionist…..o nk yg vogue2 ke…nk yg pandai masak….nk yg pandai mengampu n pandai membodek….wah wah wah….
cantik pn x le sgt…tp buruk tuh idokle(ni ayat terperasan skit….ampun ye kawan2)……vogue…x cukup sgt rsnye…..tp just b myself….x mo tiru2 org….dh le brain pon x bape bagus….part masak…yg tuh leh acceptable lg….even x bape pandai…tp bleh le nk masak 4 my whole family sbb slalu wat…nn memang pon…tp masalah utama is…..selera family kn lain2….balik2 nnt me masak pasta gaul me tuh je laa…wahahahahaha…tuh kalo tgl me sorg kt umah…rebus pasta…pastuh campur je laa…2day wif tuna…2morow wif pasta sauce….x pon me campur je ngan kuah pape…besh gak…tp kalo ade org  lain selain me kat umah…me masak le elok2…kuikuikuikuikui…..
waloapepon kekurangan yg me ada…tp me kena bersyukur gak sbb kat dunia ni ade macam2  lg golongan yg lg low dr me…mangsa perang,oku,org miskin etc….
me rs me nk p lunch lew…rs cm ader un sur2 lapa..2day ader lauk gulai kawah dgg…n ayam masak merah..but not me le masak…my mum staff yg masak2….daaaaa

Hey baby, when we are together,
doing things that we love.
Every time you’re near I feel like I’m in heaven,
feeling high
I don’t want to let go, girl.
I just need you to know girl.

I don’t wanna run away, baby you’re the one I need tonight,
No promises.
Baby, now I need to hold you tight,
I just wanna die in your arms
Here tonight

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Di kala aku dilamun cinta
Dengan dirimu mengapa kau jauh dariku

Haruskah aku menanti
Haruskah aku cinta kamu
Kerana ku tahu
Coz baby you don’t love me so….